There'll never be a single blog big enough to fit everything you need to know about me... at least in the literal sense. I've been described in numerous ways; annoying, a burden, antipathetic, a loud mouth, an anti-social, quiet, misanthropic, an ass, cynical, reserved, elitist, introverted and I'm sure there are numerous other little negativities about me that they can just pick away at. Sometimes from the same mouths though I've been described as an intelligent, empathetic, super-rational, genius, selfish, hedonistic, immoral, amoral, skeptical, strong, intimidating, and outspoken. You can never seem to get an objective opinion of my being and you'll find no different here. This is simply all I know of myself or belief of myself at the very least. I will never hold back who I am and I will disregard my appearance often to an extreme. If there is something I feel should be said I will say it without a second thought. I am not dominated or oppressed in this good old, tyrannical democracy of ours; I am the dominator and that is just how it should be.
Often I am accused of idealism by the very same people who hold a Utopian belief in the wisdom of the masses or in the existence of a silly little sky wizard named 'god'. Idealism of any kind is something to be laughed at. That's the only reason I can find behind it's existence. So if you're like me and you see a Christian, Humanist, Communist, Conservative, or even a Liberal preaching their little ideas of egalitarianism and freedom from this and that, the proper thing to do is laugh. This is what one will often find me doing. Why would I not be arguing? I would if it were on the internet or over text. Besides I stick to what Mark Twain said about arguing with people of such caliber "Don't argue with fools, on-lookers may not be able to tell the difference". Besides with text, instant messaging and chat applications I can take time to think about my response rather than blurt out idiotic arguments that sound like they were torn from a Mary Worth comic strip.
I think I'm better then everyone and I make no attempt to keep that a secret. I do know I am more intelligent than most, if not all, at least in some ways. It will be evident that sex is constantly on my mind. I am not boasting I am simply stating a blatant truth. You will learn that the human mind is infinitely concerned with the erotic. Perhaps however I misjudge my interests as the general interests of all people. I'm sure there are those who truly don't care about or even dislike sex and sexual topics. I however revel in it. I am pleased to spread what little knowledge I have on the subject yet I will always be open to learning from someone with... experience. On a related note I am polyamorous. I cannot love a single person all alone and I resent the cold bitch who would try to force me too. This limits me as women often want a man who truly and only wants one woman. I am skeptical as to the existence of this mythical creature but should I come across one of these anomalies, I'll be sure to record my finding for the next issue of Scientific American.
I would be lying if I said I was purely an Anarchist. Anarchism is a fixed-ideal like much of what I am against. I am against the Utopian, positive-claim, behind the belief of 'Statism' (the belief in state or government as necessary). I believe the state is an illegitimate institution and yet I am by no means against hierarchy, laissez-faire capitalism, Mencken's natural elitism, or for that matter radical selfish individualism. When I spoke of Statism as a positive-claim I said that Statism much like Anarchism has a burden of proof. All positive-claims have to provide proof or empirical evidence lest I dismiss it as flamboyant bullshit. I'm no scientific softy, I don't remain in a state of agnosis while there is uncertainty or a lack of evidence. In my view it's guilty until proven innocent on the crimes of Bullshitism.
I have a general distrust and dislike of humankind and other beings in general. There are exceptions, I tend to view in favor of those I know and like. I also have a positive view towards most of the more primal and care-free mammals. Cats and Dogs both are free of societal stress and yet, if strong or cunning enough, can get their own food and water. Rats are similar in this way and yet rats are still in a zealous phase of tribalism. Perhaps we humans would do well to study these beasts of freedom. I've lived with them as my best friends for nearly seventeen years. I was always repelled by 'normal' activities such as sports or vandalism. I was as I commonly refer to myself as "christ-like". I was pure, innocent, pious, meek and isolated. As much as I'd like to think otherwise I was never humble. I would be a fool to think I could be humble. No one's happiness but my own is in my control. I know that, accept it, respect it, and revel in it.
I have High Functioning Autism and Asperger's Syndrome. I have ADD (supposedly) and I have different forms of language dyslexia. I have trouble comprehending language. Whether it's reading, listening, speaking, writing, or any other form of communication. Despite this or because of this I am mentally sound and strong in my super-rationalism. It is no secret that I am of the ranks of godless heathens. I am atheistic to an extreme and antitheistic to a fault. I feel empiricial evidence and the scientific method are the best pathways to uncovering the truth. Yet in the same breath I must say deductive reasoning and abductive reasoning are just as important. I know that there was no creation or young earth. I laugh at the little imbeciles who feel that they can reconcile religion and science. They are those who are there simply for my comedy. But I... I am here now to justify only my existence and no one else's. I am the very embodiment of everything that stands against both God and the Devil. I hope to be the free spirit that defines what it is to be a free spirit. The one who knows that meaning and property aren't rights, they must be forged and fought for. The one who knows that all religions, prophets, and thought-tyrants are false.
What would I say to God if I could speak to him myself? If I may quote de Sade:
"Oh, great chimerical and empty being, your name alone has caused more blood to flow on the face of the earth than any political war ever will. Return to the nothingness from which the mad hope and ridiculous fright of men dared call you forth to their misfortune. You only appeared as a torment for the human race. What crimes would have been spared the world, if they had choked the first imbecile who thought of speaking of you."
Does this mean I'm religiously intolerant? Yes. Does it mean I think religious people don't deserve to live? No. I am the terrible atheist that all preachers warn the children of and the boogeyman that bites the lovely girl sitting alone in the corner. Yet I am also the shy boy who is himself alone in the corner. The misanthrope and cynical figure that Diogenes of Sinope was famous for standing as. Show me the figure of the supposed Lord Christ, your savior and dominator and I'll show you four stolen nails and a crown of thorns upon my head. I am John Mark Tierney III; writer, philosopher, economist, psychologist, scientist, journalist, artist, and Antichrist.
